lets see.... well my aunt kathy is in today, um... yeah so thats exciting a guess... well not really but shes nice to talk to, but she will probly be out most of the day, i have to stay home to wait for the doctor to call. and my mom said no to my swaping of hours at oberwise... so will have to come back on the second of jan. from my treck to polar grove, but she says it will be late that night so jacen and me will still be able to see return of the king that the theater. i'm nervous about meeting his family still, yep, i met his mom and dad for a very little bit when we picked him up, but yeah, that was only for like 5 mins... and there is a big difrence between 5 mins and 3 days... *shurg* oh well... time will tell how that one turns out, i won't be able to post to my blog durning that time! gasp! oh and i wont' be able to post when i'm on my trip with my mommy, we are going cruseing, i hope she dosen't feed me to the sharks.
I went to a party tonight GASP! i know your probly thinking "hey i know her, she never goes to parties" ha fooled you! i went to the crazy tomatos house where he had some friends coming over... i was the oldest one there, but i had fun non the less so :p and hm... lets see aparently they tell my i'm adorable... i would have thought he was hitting on me, if it wasn't so overly aparent that he was gay... heehee oh well, i'll just take them as complents, wahoo much needed self esteem boast! lets see.... oh there was this game there where you use a web cam of sorts and your motions killed the nijas. it was awsome! and it blew my mind there were these other games too, it was neat, yep... the party was a nice distraction from missing my jacen, who i get to see in a few days :) wahoo, not soon enoff i'm afraid :( but i guess i'll live...
i went out with my mom today to run around and do stuff, we went to office max to see if they had the cds that were on sale, of course they didn't. so we went to wallmart i got some stuff i need for college, then we went to jewl and trader joes too. then i got home and took a nap... wahoo nap, its just a lazy what ever today is um... sunday! yes sunday. well only a few more days till i go to the mysitical place called poplar grove to see my jacen :)
i think thats it
Tinyfirestarter out
I hate humanity i've decited after working drive thru register all night... stupid people and there being jerkness! its bloody ice cream! lighten up a bit, and oh god i'm sorry if you have to wait 5 mins because the bastard person infront ofyou order 10 things because they didn't want to get there fat ass out of there car! i wanted to just jump threw my little window and start mawling people... but it think that might have gotten me fired, and posed a problem when trying to find new Emploment
i'll just find where all of them work and go make there life a living hell for a bit, yes thats exactly what i'll do muahahah
I can't seem to get un tierd these days... i've been sleeping alot, and when i say alot i mean alot... i went to bed around midnight got out of bed for good at around 11:00 then was up for an hour and went back to sleep till 2...
4 days till i get to see my jacen again :)
um... lets see... got to work again today... fun... oh wait not... i'm working 4 to close when ever that is. i hope i'm not working with lazy bums again.. i can't stand that, their so lazy... hence me calling them lazy bums, i can't stand people with bad work ethic, oh well. i hope my stomach stops hurting before i have to go to work, but i dought that it will, *Shurg* nothing lots of pain killers can't fix righ?
Tinyfirestarter out
SO i'm sitting in bed today, and my mom wakes me up, some lady at work is sick, so because i'm a good person i got to work for her, form9:30-4 shesh! so sleepy i go home take a nap, eat dinner and watch eddie izzard with the wife, now thats a fun day...
i miss jacen is it when i can see him again yet?
*Sigh*
TInyfirestarter out
well i was up most of the night, throwing up my guts, and what ever else happened to be in my stomack, and even stuff that wasn't there, go figure that one out *Shurg* i started geting delustinal, and coudn't walk with out geting light headed and semi loosing concousness... thats normal right... so for christmas i got the extra strenght sterodie shot i need, luck me hu? i've got a nice bruse on my thigh to prove it too! well better then going into adreanal shock i think... i finaly figured out this crazy flu. if i kept my stomack cold it didn't want to evacuate ever several mins. I got to tell you its hell having the flu when you've got D.I. you know the feeling you get the day after you've been drinking to much... ok multiply that by alot, and you get what i feel like if i can't drink water... thus i get homicidal...
well santa/ parents gave me:\
a salvidor dali calander (with naked people one it, crazy art)
a little kids art set for fun.. with stuff i can smell in it, sweet, i get to be a little kid again, heeehee, wait... again?
a dali t shirt
oh and a toaster!! for making toast
from my dads side of the family for christmas eve... which i coudn't attend becaus i had das work:
I got soft bed sheets
A body pillow
yellow braclets
ornemt
nice art set
and a check (muahaha money)
GUESS WHO GOT FOOD POISENING FOR CHRISTMAS!!! or it maybe ever greater it might be *GASP* the FLU, but wait i got the damn shot, what the hell is this
well... tommorrow is christmas, as i'm sure you are all aware, i think i'm going to go threw it in a constan state of denial. I think i may be happyer that way, i mean i can lie to myself right? My grandma butz is just home sick with the flu, or better yet she just keeps walking in a diffrent room just as i'm walking into the room she was just in. *sigh* can't deal with it, i know i know shes gone, hence the typeing about it in my blog, but, it hasn't really sunk in, still in denial. I've avoided going into my grandpas house so far... which is good, i think, or bad, depeding on the result it would have, which i'm still uncertian about. Oh speaking of my grandpa, he drank both half gallons of egg nog i had gotten for christmas, good thing i was working today and could stash some because oberwise sold out, we would have been nog less for christmas, which to tell teh truth would have been just fine with me. I haven't tryed it and i have no desier to.
Christmas time brings along one of the memory of one of the funnest things my brother has ever said a long time ago my mom asked my brother "jonathon do you know who santa is?" He replyed "yeah hes the fat man sitting up by the computer" (refering to my dad who was doing work at the computer at the time), lol, he dosn't have many zingers but when he does, heeehee... ok well almost time to go sit on some babies.. so toodles
Its christmas eve, i'm watching red dragon, and just waiting till have to go to the job. went to the mall today with my dad and brother so he could return a shirt to hot topic and get some new ones, i thought it would be crazy like there, but it wasn't much to our suprize.
i'm curently tierd but i can't sleep, i don't know why... oh well it will pass i guess, got to open a few christmas presents today, got some Dali stuff, i.e. a framed picture and date book, also a handmade braclet this lady at my dads work made. it will match what i'm going to wear to the christmas dinner tomorrow, my black velvit skirt, with matching top with some see threw stuff on it, toped off with my "hooker" boots.
I made fish net arm covers today... there red, and um... fishnettie i guess, and i also covered my army lanyard key thingy in eletrical tape, to give it that vinal look, instead of the Pro miltary indstral complex look. *shrug* meh
well i guess thats it for now...
TInyfirestarter out
Woke up early today, because we were meeting my Grandpa and grandma for lunch at Oak Brook. We ate so much we had Fryed zuccini, buhesta, spinage salad, choped chicken salad, bread, lisana, Chicken gardinara, spinage manicotti, talpia, and then came desert!, needless to say we left more then stuffed. *sigh* we then left to drive jacen back to his home, it wasn’t so bad saying goodbye this time because I will see him soonish, I’m going over to his house for New years, and he says he is going to “show me off” to his friends, lol. And tommorow is Christmas eve, I just can’t belive that, it seems so odd. After all I haven’t been home for christmas since 5th grade, we are always out on vacation somewhere. I have to work tommorow from 2-6ish, then I’m sitting on babys at 9:50pm, but they will be sleeping, so I will just be sitting in the house playing Diablo, sweet deal hu.
I’ve decieted this is the season for eating… to much food, ettierly to much.
We woke up the next day all rested, ate some breakfast, we had these tasty mini oranges, they were so tiny, heehee, and I shoulded off my mad sadwich making skills by making us sandwichs. We started watching the Matrix Revolutions, while we waited for my brother to get back brom school, so we could head downtown. After my mommy drove us down, she droped us off my the zoon and nature museam. We headed to the Nature Museam first to see the butterflys, now there is a wonderful place, millions of beautiful butterflys, and one wonerful jacen, what me could ask for anything more :) we sat in there for a while looking at the sceanery and eachother (yeah I know how tacky, but shut up yous!), we left the butterflys but not before jacen droped his coat in a puddle. We walked around the rest of the musesam to see what it had to offer, it had lots of dead things, and a human sceliton, it creeped jacen that the last name of this individule was Ward, seeing as that’s his last name, I assured him that it was probly no relation, with that we headed off to steal animals from the zoo… I mean I would never do that :). We went in the monkey house first and saw the baby monkeys, then lion house roared at a few lions…, went to see the sea Lions (no relation to the regular lions, lol) they were feeding them, fish as it were. We then scamperd off to the pengin house where it was also feeding time, we sat down for awhile infront of the tank, and just sat together :), I could do that all day, pengins and Jacen! What a day. Next we headed off to the Small Mammal and reptile house, and I the only one who thinks that is some sorta crewl joke… I mean reptiles eat small mammals after all, seems kinda mean… I saw a rat that remined me of my pet rat snowball, only if I had fed snowball radioactive waste, it was HUGE! A hop skip and a jump away was the consevitory, so we headed there to see the plant life, it was nice ecept for the fact that it was so hot in there that our glasses kept fogging up, oh well, the price you pay to be blind, and so styleish. We then meet up with my mom again, and picked up my dad from work, and headed out for thia food, it would be jacens first time having thia. We went to Pot Of Noodles, he got the Pad See Ew, a good first timer dish, I got the Cahew Chicken m….. tasty. After dinner we headed down to state street to look at the Marshal fields windows, this years theme was charie and the chocolet factory, then over to the German market, where my parents made several weenier jokes, silly parents. Then we went into Marshal Fields to see the Walnut room, and its big christmas tree. On the way down I relized how out of control some kids are, some kid got on the elavtor pushed my mom out of the way steped on my foot to get to the window, then when he got off he did the same thing, wich out saying I’m sorry, to qoute my mom, “that little shit” heehee. We then drove home, and proceded to finish watching Matrix Revolutions, then burned Diablo Hellfire on to a disk (because I have gotten jacen adicted to diablo, muahaha) I also filled the disk with lots of other misc. stuff to keep him amused, without his internet at home, also made a copy of halo. We then went down stairs to finish watching the Phantom menace. I was happy just to sit there with my wonderfuly conferting jacen who I love so much. That also happened to be the shortest day of the year… boy we sure did a lot for it being the shortest day, heehee.
Woke up around 9ish packed up the computer and drove Jacen back to my house, we ate some cerial, and decited to start watching Finding Nemo, we got part of the way into it and thought perhaps we should take a nap seeing as we were both really tierd, so we did. When we woke up we finished up watching Finding Nemo, then we started Star Wars: the Phantom Mence. But decited that wasn’t such a good idea to keep watching, seeing as I had fall’in asleep on top of Jacen, yet again, *sigh* I can’t help it if hes so damn comferting :).
Sorry I have been neglecting my bloggy duties the last few days, I’ve been um… occupied. :) What with Jacen coming to the O.P. and all, which was wonderful :) so gather round childern and I’ll tell you a tail (to steal a line from tristans blog) first we picked him up from the de kalb oasis, I had not been able to sleep the night before because I was so excited, I couldn’t wait to see him :). I met his Parents, they seemed nice enoff, my moms words of wisdom where “never let the mom see you touching her son, and never let the girls father see him touching his little girl. Because in the eyes of all boys moms think all the girls are tramps and the eyes in all girls fathers the boys are just out to ruin their little girls” good words I think. But that whole not touching/inocent kissing is hard not to do for the first time you see them in over a week, it seemed like such a long time since I had seen my love, *shesh*. As soon as we got back to my house, jacen said hello to my puppy (which he feared would not like him) my doggy was extatic to see him, well at least as extatic as my lathargic doggy gets. Then I took jacen down stairs to the room he was going to sleep in, and gave him his christmas present. For those who didn’t know I gave him a homemade lightsaber, he likes star wars a lot, and I figured no one else would give him a lightsaber… like ever :). http://www.geocities.com/lonegunrat/lightsaber.html and for christmas he wrote a poem and framed it for me, it is the sweetest gift I have ever gotten, but then again jacen is the sweetiest person I have ever met. My mom called us up for dinner, she had made fahitas mm….. then we had to leave for the LAN at tristans, I had to pack up the pinwheel food thingys I had made ( I was showing off my mad cooking skills, oh yeah I’m a regular Betty Croker). The LAN was fun, and I Latter asked jacen if he had a good time, he said yeah. We played a lot of Halo, and Jacen won onces so now tristan has no choice but to make him the certificate he had promised him *shurg* boys will be boys. They played Counter strike, I sat out, I hate that game with a burning passion… the teams were a bit less then fair chris and tristan v.s. jacen, but jacen still managed to win acouple of games. Tradional half life was also played because halo would not go on alisons computer, we played the chruch map… of course, like normal me and alison got slaudered, but I have fun dieing so :P, after that we took an Eddie Izzard break he is one funny british transvestie. After that dylan decied he was hungry so, we all piled into the big cat moblie (which is not so big I would like to point out) I couldn’t feel my legs when we got back to tristans, but before we got back we talked chris into getting a happy meal, silly willpowerless chris, heehee. On the way there and back I was sitting on alisons lap and laying across jacens lap… I’ll leave it up to your imagination to what it looked like, but it looked um… sujestive to say the least. We finished up the gaming portion of the night by playing Halo, where tristan and dylan decited tthat they wated the Banceys at anyprice, and started killing there own team mates to get them, silly boys. Then we all fell asleep tristan on the floor, dylan stayed up to watch movies on his computer, chris feel asleep in a chair, and snored bristish mommy said she could hear him all the way 2 stories up, she thougth a semi was starting. And I feel asleep in the arms of my love, he is the most comferting thing in the world :).
I"M NOT DEAD! i just have other "stuff" to do, yep like zoo, and movies, and looking at good looking things... yep... so yeah latter
Tinyfirestarter out
I went to a lan lastnight that wasn't half bad... we got some desent halo time in, as well as a bit of half life... pluss i coudn't feel my leg for a while after the car ride we went on of food... but llike always it bottemed out and people went to sleep, not to bad though... and jacen is in town, he sleeping in my basment right now :), life is good. I think he had fun last night, i forgot to ask, oh well, so i'm not a good girlfriend meh, it happens, i'll try harder.
i'm curatnly worryed about what chris got me for christmas, i hope its not realted to what i think its releated to because if it is i'll be upset... dirty chris.
i think more naping is inorder..
Can't sleep to excited! Jacen! JACEN!!! ahhhh!!!! hes mine at ONE TODAY!!! AHHHH!!!!!!! JACEN NEED HIM NOW!!!! AHH!!!! STILL SLEEPY BUT I DON"T CARE!, NEED JACEN
ok, so i have made a desision, the whole baby sitting thing isn't that bad, expecial when they are naping!, so basicly i'm geting payed to play diable on my laptop. I also wraped a couple of christmas presents for the lady's kids i'm watching, and i happen to like wraping presents. so i decited i like this job, yep definly nice. you want to know what is even niver, my jacen is coming to orland park! I miss him so much, its been a week since him, almost exactly, because i'm typing this on my laptop, and am going to post it latter, so its like 11:58 so like 2 mins more then exactly... entierly to long in any case. he said he was concerned that my puppy maynot like him, if you know my dog, you know there is nothing to worry about, he loves everyone. and jacen has gender on his side too, chew-chew loves males, he was praving around the upstairs(which we had to carry him up, crazy lazy dog) following tristan from room to room, while he was helping me set up my wireless network. the secret to geting my dog to like you is walk in the house, and ocationaly pet him, gasp! I know its sounds complicated... ok so it dosesn't and i'm being sarchastic, but hey. my mom acused me of turning our dog into a baby, because all he wants is attention from everyone now, heehee, so i may spoil my doggy, but someones got to :)
I decited today was a skirt day, so i wore a skirt, but don't get concerned i'm not turing into a girley girl, heehee, i'm also wearing my homemade
oh and i'm geting a bit upset with my doctor.. he still hasn't called back with my test resutls.. shesh.. what about me! i want to know if i'm taking the right about of meds... is that to much to ask. oh and heeehee, i found out how much one of my meds before insuracne per month, $2,000. yeps! thank goodness for insuance. i shutter to think of how much i cost per month with out insuance.. so i guess i should make it a priorliy inlife to always have good persprition medical coverage...
hm.. i think thats it.. i want it to be tomorrow now!
tinyfirestarter out
I had work tonight, wasn't that bad... no extreamly rude customers, so thus non got icecream thrown at them... got a pay check for the one time i worked during the last pay period... wahoo $18.03.
I drove today for the first time in over 3 months! and i didn't die! or kill anything! and it wasn't that that bad! oh but when i got out of work, the car wouldn't start... so i called my dad.. and he got it to start, i hate the cold i hate cars... stupid cars...
2 more nights till jacen come to orland park, but i want him here now! *pouts*
Ok so i didn't kill the kids, they were actual pretty cute, and harmless... despite my origanal beleifs... and the one kept saying "wheres my jew", or "i want a jew" it turns out she means juice.... oh... so we don't have another mini hitler on our hands, *wipes head in releif* I don't have to baby sit again tonight because, work called and wants me to come in 7-close, my mom said yes with out asking, but *Shurg* what ever, i don't mind.... i took a nap, but didn't sleep all that great, i don't know why i can't sleep good, its really starting to make me angry, and ihave a pounding headach, and i want jacen *pouts* Saturday i just have to wait till saturday, and he will probly call tongiht, and if he doesn't i'm sure as hell going to call him.
i have to find this elf with a giant straw who keeps sucking out my energy, i'll make him pay! or i need my doctor to call back and say hey your tests came back and you need to take more of *insert name of med here*, and thats why you feel like s#!7. of now i'll just keep trucking....
Some one called me to babysit? whats up with that, i'm not any good with kids, my idea of "watching them" is taking my Ak-45 with and making sure they stay put... They are llittle and small and cute so i shouldn't be to bad. one of the little girls my mom says reminds me off me at that age.. which annoys me a bit, the only diffrance is this girl actual keeps her clothing on.... its a long story, but back in my youth i was very anti clothing... i bet you never guessed with all the revialing clothing i wear now, with the sujestive hoodies, and t-shirts *makes cat noises* Not only am i baby sitting at noon, but also tonight were there will be 3 kids, what have i gotten myself into, check the news to see if i'm on it, oh and tape it if i am!!
well all i have to say is "may god have mercy on there souls" heehee.
oh wait i can't get throw in jail... jacen is coming in this weekend... ok fine i'll restrain myself.. just for him, i will put my dislike of kids aside and just actual watch the babys.
Tinyfirestarter out
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Went to the dentist today, it was very um.. dentisty.. they poked they cleaned, they sent me on my merry way... then it was off to work, where i was helping out Janet by coming in so she could take her fiance to the doctors so he could get shots in his spine, how fun! so i worked 12-4 not bad at all, it was fun, ice cream is great fun to work with. i brought home 2 pies and a quart of chocolet marshmellow ice cream.
got home and the wireless network stuff was delivered, so tristan came over and helped me set up the network :)
then dinner....
then finished jacens christmas present... after i give it to him i'll post the link to the site i made of it... but seeing as he vists my blog and seeing as i dont' want him to know what it is... i'll wait on posting the link till this weekend...
eap, this saturday :) My jacen and a LAN!!! eee!@!!!!
TInyfirestarter out
ok thats another doctor seen... long wait, with stupid questions, and such. meh at least we went out for a good lunch, best nachos ever! at this doctors they make every girl take a pregnacy test, yeh true to form i had all read gone to the bath room and didn't have to go, but i can tell them with out a shadow of a dought that i'm not pregnat, unless its the christ child, and as i've said before, if it is i have biger fish to fry then just some kid. hell non of my doctors can even tell me if i could ever have kids, so honisly whats the point of the test.... *shrug* there all stupid, stupid quacks, i just need them to write me perscipitions. oh and i got a take home flu shot i need the lady down the street to give me, merry christmas to me!
let the great planing begin, jacens mom is saposedly going to call my mom today so we can make arangments for him to come here, for hopefuly as long as posible, *nods* yep not going to let him go, nope. need to finish his christmas gift before he gets here tho.... hm... it can be done, yep.
my work called me today and some lady needs me to work for her tomorrow from 12:30 to 4 so i said sure, so i'm going to work then, i have the denist before that but meh.
oh and lord of the rings come out tonight at midnight, i might go see it tomorrow with alison and her dad. *sigh* i wish i was going with jacen and his freinds tonight at midnight, stupid time and space diffrence.
oh well he will be with me latter this week :)
Tinyfirestarter out
I went out for a night on the town with the wife... or i went to the movie store with my wife. mean while my husband is geting drunk, even tho he said he was quiting... biggest load of bullshit ever! oh sure he's almost out of booze now but what happens when his parents buy him more... yeah exactly.. the alcoholizm continues... arn't kids saposed to drink at college? or am i just crazy, or both with is a more real posibity. lisen up kids booze dosen't make your girl or guy trobles go away, or even solve them for a little while... you may say they do, but the truth of the matter is, the booze just clouds your judgement, and evertying is worse in the end... *Sigh* only he can make that choice... he deserves better, so much better....
well on a non depresing topic me and the wife rented velvit goldmine and studio 54, both semi good movies...
ok next topic... jacen, yeah you knew it was coming, i always have to mentioni hiim, its not my falt i miss him so much, he stole my heart, or i gave it to him, or something.... well my mom said he can stay for a couple days :), and she might take us to the zoo :), we jsut have to get his mom to let him come, and stay, and i can steal him muahaha. and i might go to his house over new years :), that would be super... but i might have to work :(, but i'll try to get out of it if i do.. i do have to work christmas eve 2-5 which isn't that bad. I want my jacen *pouts moans repeats*
longest wait ever.... i fell asleep in the lobby lisening to alice cooper, then we waited in the room... he took my blood and left, meh, at least we went out for really really really good italian food... it had vodka sause on it....mmm.... tastey
need to make a box, so i think i'll rumage for stuff for that today... and maybe a nap... yes a nap sounds nice... sleep me need sleep
Yep going to the hopsital today and tomorrow, and then the dentist the day after that. oh yeah i know how to party baby!
today my endrocrilogist (i dont' know how to spell that sucker) dr levie or somthing like that , i bet hes going to stell my blood.
then next day i'm going to childerns to some new doctor to replace the one doctor who just got up and quit, with out telling us, how nice of her.
then the dentist oh yeah, i'm happy this round of doctors shouldn't be to pain full, muhahaha.
and i would like to say yesterday at the holiday concert i did not fall asleep under the table on stage, thats a dirty rotten lie... ok so maybe i did... just for a little bit. but i helped the tech department. once a techie always a techie. i was all dressed up in jeans and a hoodie and a teenage mutian nija turtle t shirt, nothing but class. oh yeah. jacen is online right now wahoo!, its comferting to know hes online, because he hasn't been for a long time. and even if i can't see him, its still better thent alking on the phone... stupid phones.... i hate them so much.... even if i can hear his voice, i don't trust those phones nope not one bit. i don't want to go downtown today, *wines complains repeats* gah, trafic is goign to be stupid! and doctors are stupid, and oh wait no there not , they make me feel better... and i got headphones so its not all bad, i can lisen to this music this awsome spectaular cute guy gave me :)
tinyfirestarter out
santa clause is a jerk
went to work last night, it was ok, kiinda slow, i did get covered in whip cream, chocolete sause, strawberrys, and the ocational cherry. but its just not the same. and i got to hear my favorit question asked by costemers, "whats the diffrence between a malt and a shake?" the answer is "a malt has malt power in it' lol, you should see the looks we get, priceless. i don't have to work next week, unless some one calls me, then i can say no, i don't want to work, or sure i'd love to work, or sorry i'm picking up my boytoy.
of a girl who never talked on the phone much before, seeing as its my only form of communication now i was on the phone for more then 2 hours last night, crazyness. i still don't like phones, nope, not one bit.
Have to do some christmas shoping today, yep, need to finsih the gift buying and building extraviagaza that goes with this crazy holiday.
my parents had me open one of my gifts, that they "made me" and by made me i mean they sewed a NIU logo on it, heehee, its one of those cymbal playing monkeys. its so cool. lets see what else is goign on... i ordered all the wireless networking stuff, and um... yeah it should come soonish, and then i can move my computer back to my room.
going to my brothers hoiday concert today, i bet its going to be long very long, i hope i don't fall a sleep, because that would be rather embaressing... oh well, if it happens it happens.
um... tristan comes home today some time, chances are he'll be drunk but hey hes in the state at least.
oh and jacens mom is going to call my mom at some point, my mom wants to awswer the phone "hello charles manison fan club" heehee, shes so silly.
um.... lets see nothing else comes to mind right now.... i know i have to shower because i smell, so perhaps i should peel myself off the intenet and do that.
Tinyfirestarter out
ok... i so saw how i'm going to get married.. some day, it was a star wars wedding, with the groom as darth vader, the bride as queen amidla, best man was darth mall, grooms men were jedi knights, brides mades were hand madens, it was so cool, and when it finished my mom said y does that seem like my worst nightmare come true, don't you even think about it!, lol, come on star wars wedding, i have to admit they pulled it off a bit tacky, i would have gone for a more authentic look. and perhaps have had the preacher be the Emperor, and maybe in corprated Chewy some how.... but yeah, star wars all the way baby. heehee, i think i would be disowned as being a daughter, it might be abit to geeky for them to handle, but honisly can any of you guys ever see me geting married traditionly, god, if i ever get married, but just think about it star wars..... oh and you just know i would make it a requiement to dress up, or do somthing silly like keep the star wars part a secret, so when they showed up they were like "what the hell" heehee, one hell of secret. muahaha! ok no more tv for me, tomay wacked out ideas.
I've gots the dsl in my house now... its better then dial up thats for sure, i can be on all the time... yep... awsome, i was on all the time with dial up too, so *Shug*, i just pulled up the comfy brown recliner chair, got my doggy on my lap while typing, i feel just like an evil person from all those 70'ds tv shows...
alll i need is my speakers, and my man sitting by my side *sigh* speakers i can go get, but the person i really want isn't here :( well potenaly get to see him some time. ok if you can't tell i have a one track mind right now... i can't help it if everything reminds me of him... i havn't gone totaly crazy, i don't have cliping of his hair, or anything. I'm wearing the RJ-45 Good luck jacks he gave me... its so cute, my mom ask "what the hell is that on your neck", i said "networking jacks, its a computer thing jacne gaven them to me" she said "whats wrong with this picture we gave you dimond earrings and your wearing computer parts on your neck, only my daughter" well just because i bought a computer case insted of buying new shoes or somthing else "girly" i guess she just can't hand the fact that i'm better then most girls (i'm feeling kinda full of myself in the moment)
Ok well thats one day down..., sure it wasn't a full dayy... it hasn't even been 24 hours, but shut up your logic one day down! way to may more to go... well at least some LAN plans are in the works, i gots me a potenal day, which is even do able because i'm not scedualed to work for that week, weee...... ok next delema i told jacen the day... but now we have to arange to get him and his computer from where he lives (2 hours away from me) to me. my mom said if his parents drive him half way, she would drive me the other half. some might be saying why doesn't one of you just drive to the other... ok well his car would die, i haven't driven in 3 months, and if your asking me to drive you've never actual seen me drive (its horable). oh and for the fact that we both have the same um... "Really really bad" sence of direction, i remeber when i first started talking to him and he asked directions to baker square, that was crazyness, it turns out it was right down the street. *shrug* now we know...
hm... lets see what else is going on with me besides the overwellming sadness... well there is a progect going on at home to semi keep me ocupided, tristan is going to help me wirelessly network my house... and i basicly get to chose what kind, what products and such, so wee..... and um...
lets see i have another progect i'm working on but i can't tell to much about it but i'll be sure to post pictures when i'm done, i'm hopeing it turns out good... but i have a lack of confidence in my building abilty, i wish i was a master welder of maybe just not so bad at building things... everytnig i try to build ends up... well... ok most ofyou have see our modding atempts, i rest my case.
Tinyfirestarter out
I've disocverd somthing today, i existest in two worlds- The college world, were i'm happy, free, and i have true love, and the world i lived in before i went to college. Its like an alternet demetions where nothing changes. I just want to go back to college world. I hope i wake up from this dream of my old life soon, i can only hope its a dream, then i can wake up beside my jacen, and go on living in bliss. i don't plan on leaving my room much, i plan of probley being a socical regect, but whats new. meh i'll see my freinds, drownd my sarrows in a massive killing spree, which won't help but it can't hurt right...
i go back to the job tomorrow. 7 to close, yeppy, and i found out what that random check for 25$'s was for in the mail, aparently the store won somthing for the month i only worked a month in, so i made more from the contest then i probly did for the time i worked *shrug* i'll take it.
and for those 2 people who are planing lans, pick a dang date, so i can arage to get my sweetie out here, and i can see him, i'm going threw with drawl and it hasn't even been 12 hours yet!
and i thought of somthing to get jacen for christmas i just hope i can find it. since i know he reads this, i can't say what it is, and if i have told anyone they know the penilty for telling, i take a knife to them, and i won't cut off fingers if you get my drift.... ok well thats enoff threnting and sadness for me as of right now, i'm going to go sulk and wait for his phone call,
tinyfirestarter out
ITs nice to know that natural human nature hasn't gone compleatly to hell. i like then people are nice, beyond what they have to be. i know who dosen't honislty, but i've found that it is geting rarer and rarer, its becoming like the enganged white rinos. It gives me a good feeling inside, expecial when i'm not feeling the best from a health point (stupid what ever i have) and emotonal standpoint (i'm going to be with out my jacen for a long time, stupid break :( )
so i went down stairs to the lobby because jacen was coming over to get my calulator for his math final, so we sat in the lobby for a wonderful half hour. then when he had to leave i went to the lunch room, because i remebered they were having klondike bars as part of a finals lunch promotion, so i go. and the lady who swipes the cards was talking to another lunch lady, and when she relized i was standing there opoliged, i was no problem for me, its not like i had anything i had to do, or that was real important, i'm just killing time till jacen gets back. I start to talk to the two ladies about how it is sad when i come down to the all you can eat just because they have klondike bars for deasert, they said well why don't you just walk over to the other side, i said because of the dinning dollars i have to use before the end of the week, we agree that its a wast, and i'm on my way to get some food. my lunch consisted of tater tots, a hot dog like thing, and half a boca burger (not as good with out the meat). when i finish with that i go to the frezzer and find no klodike bars, i'm kinda up set but no big deal i sapose. so i just get a chocolete ice cream and some cake, because i wanted some sweets. as i was leaving the lady at the counter stops me and said there she is, pointed to me and a lady came and said sorry abou the no klondike bars but i brought over these penut ones because there isn't any regular ones. I just think it was nice of them to go out of there way to get something for me, they remind me of grandma like figures. which i guess in this point in my life is rather special. what with the holiday time aprocing, and me having to deal with there not being the once grandma there was. i just felt like sharing, and its my blog so ha.
Tinyfirestarter out
ITs to dang early for fire alarms to be going off!, what the heck, melissa is not in the mood to walk down 12 flights of stairs, and stand out in the cold!, and its finals week, all i'm saying is wtf!
that was by far some of the wierdest sleep i have ever gotten. i was up i was alseep i was up again. i don't feel that tierd, which is good. my nose is still runing but meh, its still attached. i ran out of klenex but i found chinet napkins to blow my nose in so it all good.
I feel break aproching, i don't want to go, nope, what if i refuse, can i do that? i don't to be alone again, which 2 hours seprating me from my love. Hopefully if i keep busy i will only get sad at night, and during parts of the day. and when ever i sit by my computer, and when ever i read one of the notes he wrote me, or *sigh* ok so i will be sad alot, but hes still mine, and that is some comfert :), my perfect jacen.
I have to work at oberwise on saturday 7-close, crappy pay but half off icecream. and its not all that bad. a job is a job, i just hope they don't mind to much that i'm sick, and if they do, nothing i can do about it, i don't want to be sick.
well i have all my christmas shopping done execpt for alison, and a certian someone. and i'm still wondering what my parents made me for christmas, what could they have made me?, i hope its a jedi cloak *nods* i don't think they would, but hey i never know, they are crazy, crazyness is genetic you know. where did you think i got it from.
we are geting dsl, i can't rember if i said that yet... well we are, so no more ancent dial up. and lets see.... going to English 103 final today, we are watching a Buffy episode, since we already turned in our portfoilos. still trying to get jacen in my english class next semester, my teacher said she can becasue she has "the power", hm.. then i'm off to drawing class, were we are going to crique our final drawings, i'm happy with mine, i think its the best drawing i've ever done, sure its not the best, but it sorta looks like me, and i like the consept behind it. sure its got the same basic theme as the rest of my art but, yeah, its what i know.and i don't run a very excitting life. oh we are ordering pizza, and tonight i'm gonig to meet josh for dinner at the indain restrant in the VCB plaza, and i'm going to get my shirt back wahoo, i've been missing it since the beging of the year. Ok heres the short version of the story: we were printing the ARS NOVA logo on t shirts in the art deparment, and i thought it would look really nice on the shirt i was wearing (i.e. my t dyed shirt) so i went to the bathroom took off my shirt and just wore my hoodie around. but it was really late when they got to the black ink, so josh said he would stay and get my shirt, and hes had it ever since. i know thats not the story you were expecting. but this is me here people, what did you honislty expect.
i think thats it.. oh i had a kondike bar yesterday and a strawberry dauirri sobe. mm....
~tinyfirestarter
well late last night was just a kicker for everyone. some worse then others but a kicker non the less. lets see where do i begin. ok we'll start from least to most:
Ok for starters i was hacking (as in coughing) for a good hour before i had enoff common sence to go take a shower to lossen up the mucus from my lungs (mm....)
Next My love can't find his little red history book that he needs to write his paper. he wanted to write it tonight so he could spend thursday night with me.
Ok and last but not least! my best friend is being lead around on a string that just seems to geting shorter and shorter, and also has a habit of starting on fire. Girls are such hell, or at least this girl is, but what can he do hes in love. he has more streaght then be thats for sure, i would have already pulled out the Glock and shot her dead!. i mean.... i would never do that..... I jsut hope he thinks she is worth it, because all i see is the hell she is puting him through, and it makes me sad to think that hes not geting any happness in return.
well back to the coughing
~tinyfirestarter out
HE's figured me out.....
me: what did the health peoples say?
jacen: oh
jacen: i have insects in my lungs
me: sure sure
jacen: they're reproducing at an alarming rate
me: your silly
jacen: soon i'll be part insect
jacen: will you still love me?
me: yes
jacen: will you have my insectish babies?
jacen: they're little, but there's lots of them
me: since if that's what you have, then i probly have the insect lungs too
jacen: nah
jacen: it's not contagious
me: yes i would love to have your insect babies
jacen: insect lung is only caught by one person every 5248 years
me: oh your luck then
jacen: they chose me to be their host
me: its because your the greatest :)
jacen: but yeah....
jacen: but i just realized....
jacen: you can fly, right?
jacen: and you like to burrow, right?
jacen: and you're not human, right?
jacen: this all makes sense now....
jacen: you're the insect queen!!!
me: gasp, you've figured me out
jacen: you've contaminuated me!
me: i'm the "queen of darkness"
jacen: not that other way around!
gasp *shrugs* it happens, but there is nothing he can do about it the insects are already in his lungs *laughs evily*
I finished my drawing final last night. yep thats a load off of my mind, now i just have to go into the dreded crique on wensday.
Hm... well its offical i'm sick, started hacking up a lung lastnight and into this morning. Jacen went to health sevise today, so chances are i have what ever he has. its not fun what ever it is.
Were geting DSL at home! no more dial up for me! wahoo! yippy!
oh just so you all know the ducks over by the pond by my dorm building are ploting something BIG! i mean huge, soo just be aware.
Tinyfirestarter out
I'm up; he's sleeping, so peaceful, taking a lovely little nap :) I want to go back and lay beside him, but I fear I will wake him of his peaceful dream. So many times before I was the one asleep.
So tired, finals coming up, the stress of the format, now calm.
He twirls his feet so cute
My sweet Internet Prince
Now he’s awake, and he threw a pair of sox he found at my chest. *Shrug*
what a wonderful day it was, nothing like spending the entire day with the most perfit person ever, even if they do have a cough. :) trasfering files, watching pi, playing diablo, we are 2 wild and crazy kids :) oh and last night we watched um... hyper cube, that is one messed up movie, yep messed up. I touched up my drawing a bit, and i need to shower because i'm sucummy eww...... yep ok well i'm going ot go do that now. bye bye
i'm almost done with my drawing part of my final drawing for drawing class.
next step tear that sucker up! yep you read right i'm going to tear the hell out of it and sew it back together, its not like i've been drawing it for long only for ever. but hey it wil make me feel better right...
last night was spent formating a computer, um.... alot, alot of time, stupid windows 2000, i don't trust it as far as i can throw it, and since its a not compleatly tangalbe item, since its a duh computer program. oh well.... we threw 98 on it manually and then put xp on it. yep silly xp. now we are trasfing files back! Wahooo.... will the fun times never end...
oh and if i get framed for a murder its all my moms falt. you should know that... um.. i think thats it...
Tinyfirestarter out
IN english class, in the computer lab wondering were most of the class is. the teacher is here so i know i'm not going insaine, besides i already "went" so promlem solved, at least now i know i'm not making things up in my head, which could create problems latter on in life. hm.. and class is over, in 3 mins shortest english class ever! turn in portfoilo and were done...
Now i need to ask her to "knock off" some people from her english class next semester so jacen can get in. hm.... ok so now i'm free for the rest of the day. my mommy is coming to drop off some of my meds, and some orange juice. oh and a good salad. she is coming up around 12:10, after she leaves, i'm all jacens, we are going to do something only a geeky couple would do... we are going to trasfter his data, and format his computer :).... awww... how cute....
Tinyfirestater out
I decided last night i was going to start hording sleep, so i slept for ummm... lets see a grand total with only a few short breaks *drumroll* 11 hours! and guess what i'm still not fully awake! oh yeah!
hm.. yeah it snowed last night aparentlly, but looking back i do remeber that it was snowing when i came home from marching band, but it wasn't sticking. now its all white out. stupid racest weather. whities not going to keep me down!
Ok what is something you pay over Hundred $'s for and when you sell them back you get $25.50. THats right College text books..... i got half of what i payed for one book back. greedy captilst pig dogs.
so if any one would like to buy a sociology book by richard t. schaffer the 8th edition with the cd. just tell me, i'll sell it dirt cheap.
Well i can't do math, and i'm stupid, thats what is new in the world.... yep, um... yeah i didn;'t bring enoff of one of my meds to last me till i go home for break, which mind you i don't want to go on. like i really really really don't want to. I want jacen. but nooo.... we have to have christmas break, christmas is stuch a stupid holiday anyways. some people may say thats balsfamy its the birthday of "our savior", first of all no it's not!, the only reason they made it in december is so that it would chech on, its based around the pagan hoiday of winter solstis. so don't even give me that. and honistly who celibrates it as the birthday of jesus anyways. lets face it you think christmas you think gifts, trees, and traffic hell (if you live in the O.P.) , you don't think about some mircle child being born in a manger, and if you do your prodly one of those people who have the plastic mager sceans infront of your house. don't even get me started on those...
i miss him already and hes not even gone... break is going to be hell.
and here is wondering if i'm actual geting my job back, because i don't know. i might i might not. i kinda hope they say they don't need me, or that they only need me for like 2 days and this is those days... i had the waiting to see what my schedual is going to look like.
there are sevreal potental LAN's but nothing for sure, and chances are they are going to suck , because no one will show up...
if you can't tell i'm in a realy positive mood today... oh wait no i'm not...
well enoff bitching for now... i'm going to go so somthing probly my stupid drawing.
Tinyfirestarter out
arn't addictions great? don't they give you a sence of purpose? i'm not talking about the stupid addictions like ciggrettes or alcohal, or herroin, or any of those other dumb attictions, i'm talking about nice healthy computer game addiction, it gives me a sence of purpose :), oh yeah nothing like killing evil to get your mind off everthing that is keeping you down, like the man. damn the man! and it fills time, oh yes, a nice fill of time.
Its official i can't eat ceral anymore... i've lost alll ability, i'm sitting here, and i keep droping it down my shirt. and Milk is good, yep definaly good, along with orange juice, reall orange juice, not the fake stuff they try to pass of as orange juice here.
I started playing Diablo again last night, that is the best game ever, some people might say that game is so old, to them i say "shut the hell up".
lets see need to revise english paper, and right the preface, and um... do some more drawing... and i'm taking a treck to some sorta drug store so we can fix up jacen. and speaking of jacen, we have been officaly going out for 2 wonderful months today! time just flys :) i hope the good times never end.
hm... lets see fighting evil, whats due for school, jacen making my life wonderful for 2 months today.... um... i think thats it..
tinyfirestarter out
I'm sleepy.... hm... perhaps nap soonish, i don't know... i have to do my drawing, and such, but i don't have drawing class tomorrow, but i do have english, but no marching band, but i have that on thursday and friday.. this is confusing, perhaps thats just because i'm sleepy.
I"m happy :) sleepy but happy, and who needs sleep when your happy :)
hm... drawing is progressing..... going slowly but yeah i odn't know.... hm.. yeah can't think of anything else really.... nope..
tinyfirestarter out
I'm happy to be back at school, not because of the homework, or the learning or the classes, that stuff just gets in the way of the real meaning of college... Jacen, yep.i saw him last night i was soooooooo happy, it was like a dream, when i saw him there waiting for me to bring him up to my floor, i was begining to think i would never see him again... so i'm sorry i have to do this, but christmas break has been canceled because i dont' want to leave niu, sorry for any of you who this inconvinonces, but to damn bad!
ok now that i have that off my chest... sorta speak, i have a mid way drawing cretic on my final in drawing class boo! boo indeed, i'm not half way persay more of not so much half way, perhaps i'll aruge about the glass being half empty or half full, and i'm just an optomist, when infact i'm a huge perimist, and i'm just a slacker to boot. so *shrug* it happens and i'm just friguritlivly screwed, oh well it happens, life goes on thenyah die.
~tinyfirestarter